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[pottershotter]

What happened to that town? ...Is the event over? That's really too bad. It was rather nice. I-

...What? I...Oh bloody Merlin, what's wrong with me? What have I been doing all this time?

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[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

What's wrong mate?

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

Sirius. Sirius, I...I'm a horrible person.

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Like fuck you are. What's going on?

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

But I am! I'm no good at all! I've done terrible, terrible things to so many people...

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Hogwash. You're James Potter, defender of the good and innocent, righter of the strayers from the path.

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

W-What? More like James Potter, who can barely tie his shoes right. I'd be rubbish at defending the good and the innocent. Besides, I've knocked more people off the path permanently than righted them...

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[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

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[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

That's a load of shit and we both know it. Who taught me wrong from right? That's no small feat right there mate. What happened to that ever dashing ego of yours anyway? You used to be mad full of yourself.

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

Was I?

I don't know about that though. I don't know how I could really help anyone with anything.

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Damn Potter, you're acting like a whiny little Huffelpuff. Anita says there's an event going on and I'm starting to agree. This isn't like you at all mate.

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

We just had one though, didn't we? That town...I don't think this place usually does them twice in a row?

Err. Not that I doubt you or anything.

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Because you're James fucking Potter for Merlin's sake. You're the poster child for Gryffindor.

I wouldn't think so either, but I have this weird memory of my dad saving me from bees. Not to mention the more screwed up memories that others are having.

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

...Bees? That is sort of odd, knowing your father. ...

But...I remember it, so clearly, all of the things I did...it doesn't feel made up, it all fits together. .

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

None taken. He's a fucker.

Mine are the same way. It fits right in with the rest of it but it doesn't seem right somehow. With him being a bastard and all.

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

But...I-I'm a horrid person, so...the things I remembered, they make sense. All of the rotten things I did, all of the things I'm still capable of doing to people...I don't know how anyone could see any good in me!

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

James, you're one of the best people I know. You're one of those people who'd be on the front line against Voldamort slinging curses and the Death Eaters. Whatver's got you this deep into hating yourself has got to be wrong.

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

But...I. I'm not. Really, I'm not. You might be thinking of someone else? Maybe? That really...it doesn't sound like me at all. I mean, I'd love to do those things, but I'm not any good at all.

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

What are you talking about? You're my compatriot, my right hand. Who the hell do you think helps plan everything. You, that's who.

Seriously mate, what happened, did they take your balls alone with your memory?

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

Me? It's a wonder anything gets done with me around. I surprised any of you even want to be around me.

W-What? No! I mean...no, they didn't.

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

You're sounding like Peter mate. As much as I love the boy I don't think we need two of him.

Yes they did. They cut them off and now you've got none.

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry...I don't really know how to be less like him though? I don't think I've ever not been like this?

No, no they didn't! I don't mean to snap at you, but that really...it didn't happen!

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

You have James, you really have. Why do you think you're the stag? You're a protector.

If they didn't cut off your balls you wouldn't be apologizing for being such a wuss. I've known witches with more balls then you have right now.

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

I... I wasn't sure why I was something so majestic. That's not like me at all...

I-I, but...that's not-! I can't really help it!

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Mate, did they take your whole memory away? You've got a bad case here.

Because they cut off your balls.

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

You think so? But, no I...I remember a lot. I remember Hogwarts, and you and Remus and Peter and the things we've done together, ...and all of these terrible things I've done, I've acted so terribly to people!

They didn't, really! That's not why...

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

Then you should remember that you were the one who kept me out of doing stupid shit.

Doctor X? Maye, I think we just found you're wrong memory. How could you believe something with a guy named Dr. X in it?

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

I...I do. But that all could have been a fluke, right? I remember it, but I can't...I really don't see myself being able to accomplish things like that.

But, I'm pretty sure of it? I remember that so clearly...I made a deal with him.

[cockofthewok.livejournal.com]

No fluke Prongs. You're one of the best at Hogwarts, probably one of the best in the mansion.

And I remember my father saving me like it was yesterday, but I don't think it happened. It doesn't fit. Think about it. If you think about it clearly I bet yours won't fit either. Especially since I don't know about it and I'm so close to you I've got when you piss written down in my class notes.

[chess-wizard.livejournal.com]

Er, Mr. Potter James? Are you all right?

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

Me? I'm...well. I'll be all right, I think. I can't really say the same for some others, but...

...I've done somethings I regret.

[chess-wizard.livejournal.com]

I....

It seems like a lot of people are suddenly remembering things that don't make a whole lot of sense.

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

But it does make sense! It all fits together...sort of. I think.

....Sorry though. I shouldn't be snapping at you. It's not your fault, after all.

[chess-wizard.livejournal.com]

Well, as long as it makes sense to someone.

It's all right. I think someone's working on making things okay again. Or, as okay as they can be around here.

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

That's good, that someone's doing something. I don't think I'd be able to do much at all about it.

...Wait, so. ...But we just had an event? I'm sorry but that doesn't make much sense either.

[chess-wizard.livejournal.com]

I don't really know what all's going on, either. But someone said he knows who can look into these "mixed up memories," like he called them. So maybe there was another event thrown in right behind the last one?

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

Maybe...

[chess-wizard.livejournal.com]

I'm very much with you on the "not being able to handle that" thing.

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

There...I'm sure there's someone who can. It would be bad if anyone had to rely on me.

[jacaranda-honey.livejournal.com]

...well, what have you been doing?

[pottershotter.livejournal.com]

Things I probably...shouldn't discuss so openly.